50/50 Day!

I am a man with very few answers today. Everything seems to be up in the air. We'll start with the good news.

I'm officially half way in fundraising! Wahoo! I still need to collect from our GAME ON! fundraiser too. I'm really hoping people catch on to my 'one cup, give it up' facebook campaign. It's disheartening to see people deny the event but you can't win them all i guess! I sent the invitation out to over 700 people so I'm really hoping a good number will give up a coffee for a day and donate 5 dollars.

Bad news. I hurt my foot. BAD. I've been sooo good about resting my knee, icing, advil, and stretching like crazy. When I hit the road last night for a slow 8 miler, I started getting foot pain. The knee felt great but not the opposite foot. Midfoot along the outside started to bother me. I loosened up my laces to see if that was the cause but it continued. About 6.5 miles in, I couldn't take it and I knew something was wrong. The sun had gone down and I had a very, VERY cold 2 mile walk home. I wouldn't be surprised if I get a cold on top of it all.

So WTF?!!! My body is rejecting me now without warning. What do I do? I'm supposed to run the half marathon this weekend. Do I rest for two days and give it a shot? Do I scrap it and focus on healing completely? I feel like a total failure! All that hard training must have been a little too hard I suppose. My nervousness for not training hard enough and not reaching my goal time just turned into nervousness that I have to accept I'm not going to run the race I hoped for.

Most of all, I have to walk away with my tail between my legs. The people that said I couldn't qualify my first marathon, my coach who said i was going too fast. I'm proving them right because I have no other choice. Do I have to accept that finishing the race is good enough? I have no answers people. AND its friday the 13th. I don't wanna call the trainer because I think he's going to tell me I have a hairline fracture in my 5th metatarsal because that WOULD happen today...

Anyway, I'll let ya know what the coach says about this weekend. I'm going to get acquainted with Mr. Elliptical.